Meet Isac (Awhile Back)

I remember dating a guy named Isac, he's a tenth grader. He is also Toby and Hans' brother. He was an incredible guy, and I loved him a lot. He was a huge stoner, although i don't now if he still is...
Isac was addicted to pot and cigs and drinking and occasionally using acid. He also dealt with terrible depression.
One day while i was at my step-dad's house watching tv i got a call from Toby... Toby was very clear with his message and he tried to cover the tears but i could hear him crying through the phone. Toby said, " If you hear from Isac, call me and keep him with you. Isac ran away and left a suicide note." Turns out Isac had wrote about jumping off the tallest building in the city and ran away because he got in a fight with his parents. Luckily he didnt. He was at a friends house almost through a cycle of pain killers when his friends dad found him and took him home. I didnt hear from Isac for awhile and eventually when i did, we broke up and shortly after he went to rehab up in a small town about six hours away.
I went crazy and smoked pot every night to fall asleep, started taking huge amounts of pills and drinking my heart away. I got it all under control when i started to like Damian and we dated...for four days. And then Oliver...and Im very very happy with him...but im still waiting for Isac to come back.
My heart is still with Isac.
Here is a note Isac wrote me from rehab.
Let's pretend my name is Jennifer:
Dear Jennifer,
Thank you so much for the note, I look at it every day and just thinking about you pushes me through the long days. I miss you so much, I think about what i lost everyday and I can't stand being away from you. I hope you are still waiting for me because I will wait for you as long as it takes.
I can't help but say I've fallen in love with you, and I feel that it is more real than anything.
Write back as soon as you can.
With all love, Isac<3

It literally broke my heart when Isac's mom made me friend-zone him over another letter...
I miss Isac a lot. Maybe him being gone is what's turning me into such a fuck-up.